Do exactly what I'm doing.
And live from my heart and speak truth and make a living telling the truth.
My dream is to make unboxable things.
My dream is to make people feel more fulfilled.
Or rather INVITE people to feel more fulfilled.
Because that really brings me so much joy.
My dream is to live a life of integrity and allow people to trust in integrity again.
(everything above, all came out via text to my friend, Robert tonight. And here it all is here for you. Everything below is me writing from my guts for myself.)
Clarifying my dreams grounds me.
I feel grounded when I speak my desires.
I remember that desires exist for a reason.
I remember that my desires come from God. Whatever or Whoever God is.
I find myself believing in this God. Asking it: how can I help?
And my God is not a Christian God or a Catholic God. My God is a Spirit, an Energy, and a Presence that wants me to fulfill my desires. Because my God gave me those desires. And as long as they are deeply grown from my honest and truthful existence, then I will have fulfilled my life's purposes.
I don't like to think of a life's purpose as singular. I think there can be multiple purposes.
I also worry and think about the people whose purposes are hurtful or violent or damaging to other people's lives and desires. And I question their dreams because I have trouble believing in people's dreams whose dreams are to annihilate.
And I question whether their dreams come from a truthful and honest place, or from a place of their fears or their traditions or from their hurt.
I essentially believe:
That dreams born out of hurt lead to one's destruction.
This is why we must tend to the hurt. To heal the hurt. To be emotional with the hurt. So that our dreams born from hurt don't continue to hurt others.
This is why we take care of ourselves.
And the world contains these multitudes.
And if I sit with all the varying dreams of all the people, I can get overwhelmed.
And I remember, I cannot control peoples' dreams. I can try to help guide them. I can help by sharing my dreams. I can fulfill the prophecy that is alive and burning within me. I can help by simply focusing, remembering, and getting grounded in my dreams.
To be grounded in my desires.
This is where my answers lie. This is where connection lives. This is how I connect with others with integrity. This is how I trust myself. This is how I enjoy life. By remembering and appreciating my desires.